And then she thought of the horse. Name of God!Suppose the horse had died in the night!He had seemed ready to die when she unharnessed him.She ran around the wagon and saw him lying on his side.If he were dead, she would curse God and die too.Somebody in the Bible had done just that thing.Cursed God and died.She knew just how that person felt.But the horse was alive—breathing heavily, sick eyes half closed, but alive.Well, some water would help him too.
Prissy climbed reluctantly from the wagon with many groans and timorously followed Scarlett up the avenue. Behind the ruins the row of whitewashed slave quarters stood silent and deserted under the overhanging trees.Between the quarters and the smoked stone foundations, they found the well, and the roof of it still stood with the bucket far down the well.Between them, they wound up the rope, and when the bucket of cool sparkling water appeared out of the dark depths, Scarlett tilted it to her lips and drank with loud sucking noises, spilling the water all over herself.
She drank until Prissy's petulant:“Well, Ah's thusty, too, Miss Scarlett,”made her recall the needs of the others.
“Untie the knot and take the bucket to the wagon and give them some. And give the rest to the horse.Don't you think Miss Melanie ought to nurse the baby?He'll starve.”
“Law, Miss Scarlett, Miss Melly ain'got no milk—ain'gwine have none.”
“How do you know?”
“Ah's seed too many lak her.”
“Don't go putting on any airs with me. A precious little you knew about babies yesterday.Hurry now.I'm going to try to find something to eat.”
Scarlett's search was futile until in the orchard she found a few apples. Soldiers had been there before her and there were none on the trees.Those she found on the ground were mostly rotten.She filled her skirt with the best of them and came back across the soft earth collecting small pebbles in her slippers.Why hadn't she brought something to eat?She'd acted like a fool.But, of course, she'd thought Rhett would take care of them.
Rhett!She spat on the ground, for the very name tasted bad. How she hated him!How contemptible he had been!And she had stood there in the road and let him kiss her—and almost liked it.She had been crazy last night.How despicable he was!
When she came back, she divided up the apples and threw the rest into the back of the wagon. The horse was on his feet now but the water did not seem to have refreshed him much.He looked far worse in the daylight than he had the night before.His hip bones stood out like an old cow's, his ribs showed like a washboard and his back was a mass of sores.She shrank from touching him as she harnessed him.When she slipped the bit into his mouth, she saw that he was practically toothless.As old as the hills!While Rhett was stealing a horse, why couldn't he have stolen a good one?
She mounted the seat and brought down the hickory limb on his back. He wheezed and started, but he walked so slowly as she turned him into the road she knew she could walk faster herself with no effort whatever.Oh, if only she didn't have Melanie and Wade and the baby and Prissy to bother with!How swiftly she could walk home!Why, she would run home, run every step of the way that would bring her closer to Tara and to Mother.
They couldn't be more than fifteen miles from home, but at the rate this old nag traveled it would take all day, for she would have to stop frequently to rest him. All day!She looked down the glaring red road, cut in deep ruts where cannon wheels and ambulances had gone over it.It would be hours before sheknew if Tara still stood and if Ellen were there.It would be hours before she finished her journey under the broiling September sun.
She looked back at Melanie who lay with sick eyes closed against the sun and jerked loose the strings of her bonnet and tossed it to Prissy.
“Put that over her face. It'll keep the sun out of her eyes.”Then as the heat beat down upon her unprotected head, she thought:“I'll be as freckled as a guinea egg before this day is over.”
She had never in her life been out in the sunshine without a hat or veils, never handled reins without gloves to protect the white skin of her dimpled hands. Yet here she was exposed to the sun in a broken-down wagon with a broken-down horse, dirty, sweaty, hungry, helpless to do anything but plod along at a snail's pace through a deserted land.What a few short weeks it had been since she was safe and secure!What a little while since she and everyone else had thought that Atlanta could never fall, that Georgia could never be invaded.But the small cloud which appeared in the northwest four months ago had blown up into a mighty storm and then into a screaming tornado, sweeping away her world, whirling her out of her sheltered life, and dropping her down in the midst of this still, haunted desolation.
Was Tara still standing?Or was Tara also gone with the wind which had swept through Georgia?
She laid the whip on the tired horse's back and tried to urge him on while the waggling wheels rocked them drunkenly from side to side.
There was death in the air. In the rays of the late afternoon sun, every wellremembered field and forest grove was green and still, with an unearthly quiet that struck terror to Scarlett's heart.Every empty, shellpitted house they had passed that day, every gaunt chimney standing sentinel over smoke-blackened ruins, had frightened her more.Dead men and dead horses, yes, and dead mules, lying by the road, swollen, covered with flies, but nothing alive.No far-off cattle lowed, no birds sang, no wind waved the trees.Only the tired plop-plop of the horse's feet and the weak wailing of Melanie's baby broke the stillness.