She stared at him. He reached up roughly, caught her under the arms and swung her to the ground beside him.With a tight grip on her he dragged her several paces away from the wagon.She felt the dust and gravel in her slippers hurting her feet.The still hot darkness wrapped her like a dream.
“I'm not asking you to understand or forgive. I don't give a damn whether you do either, for I shall never understand or forgive myself for this idiocy.I am annoyed at myself to find that so much quixoticism still lingers in me.But our fair Southland needs every man.Didn't our brave Governor Brown say just that?No matter.I'm off to the wars.”He laughed suddenly, a ringing, free laugh that startled the echoes in the dark woods.
“‘I could not love thee, Dear, so much, loved I not Honour more.'That's a pat speech, isn't it?Certainly better than anything I can think up myself, at the present moment. For I do love you, Scarlett, in spite of what I said that night on the porch last month.”
His drawl was caressing and his hands slid up her bare arms, warm strong hands.“I love you, Scarlett, because we are so much alike, renegades, both of us, dear, and selfish rascals. Neither of us cares a rap if the whole world goes to pot, so long as we are safe and comfortable.”
His voice went on in the darkness and she heard words, but they made no sense to her. Her mind was tiredly trying to take in the harsh truth that he was leaving her here to face the Yankees alone.Her mind said:“He's leaving me.He's leaving me.”But no emotion stirred.
Then his arms went around her waist and shoulders and she felt the hard muscles of his thighs against her body and the buttons of his coat pressing into her breast. A warm tide of feeling, bewildering, frightening, swept over her, carrying out of her mind the time and place and circumstances.She felt as limp as a rag doll, warm, weak and helpless, and his supporting arms were so pleasant.
“You don't want to change your mind about what I said last month?There's nothing like danger and death to give an added fillip. Be patriotic, Scarlett.Think how you would be sending a soldier to his death with beautiful memories.”
He was kissing her now and his mustache tickled her mouth, kissing her with slow, hot lips that were as leisurely as though he had the whole night before him. Charles had never kissed her like this.Never had the kisses of the Tarleton and Calvert boys made her go hot and cold and shaky like this.He bent her body backward and his lips traveled down her throat to where the cameo fastened her basque.
“Sweet,”he whispered.“Sweet.”
She saw the wagon dimly in the dark and heard the treble piping of Wade's voice.
“Muvver! Wade fwightened!”
Into her swaying, darkened mind, cold sanity came back with a rush and she remembered what she had forgotten for the moment—that she was frightened too, and Rhett was leaving her, leaving her, the damned cad. And on top of it all, he had the consummate gall to stand here in the road and insult her with his infamous proposals.Rage and hate flowed into her and stiffened her spine and with one wrench she tore herself loose from his arms.
“Oh, you cad!”she cried and her mind leaped about, trying to think of worse things to call him, things she had heard Gerald call Mr. Lincoln, the MacIntoshes and balky mules, but the words would not come.“You low-down, cowardly, nasty, stinking thing!”And because she could not think of anything crushing enough, she drew back her arm and slapped him across the mouth with all the force she had left.He took a step backward, his hand going to his face.
“Ah,”he said quietly and for a moment they stood facing each other in the darkness. Scarlett could hear his heavy breathing, and her own breath came in gasps as if she had been running hard.
“They were right!Everybody was right!You aren't a gentleman!”
“My dear girl,”he said,“how inadequate.”
She knew he was laughing and the thought goaded her.
“Go on!Go on now!I want you to hurry. I don't want to ever see you again.I hope a cannon ball lands right on you.I hope it blows you to a million pieces.I—”
“Never mind the rest. I follow your general idea.When I'm dead on the altar of my country, I hope your conscience hurts you.”
She heard him laugh as he turned away and walked back toward the wagon. She saw him stand beside it, heard him speak and his voice was changed, courteous and respectful as it always was when he spoke to Melanie.
“Mrs. Wilkes?”
Prissy's frightened voice made answer from the wagon.
“Gawdlmighty, Cap'n Butler!Miss Melly done fainted way back yonder.”“She's not dead?Is she breathing?”
“Yassuh, ‘she breathin’.”
“Then she's probably better off as she is. If she were conscious, I doubt if she could live through all the pain.Take good care of her, Prissy.Here's a shin plaster for you.Try not to be a bigger fool than you are.”
“Yassuh. Thankee sub.”
“Good-by, Scarlett.”
She knew he had turned and was facing her but she did not speak. Hate choked all utterance.His feet ground on the pebbles of the road and for a moment she saw his big shoulders looming up in the dark.Then he was gone.She could hear the sound of his feet for a while and then they died away.She came slowly back to the wagon, her knees shaking.
Why had he gone, stepping off into the dark, into the war, into a Cause that was lost, into a world that was mad?Why had he gone, Rhett who loved the pleasures of women and liquor, the comfort of good food and soft beds, the feel of fine linen and good leather, who hated the South and jeered at the fools who fought for it?Now he had set his varnished boots upon a bitter road where hunger tramped with tireless stride and wounds and weariness and heartbreak ran like yelping wolves. And the end of the road was death.He need not have gone.He was safe, rich, comfortable.But he had gone, leaving her alone in a night as black as blindness, with the Yankee Army between her and home.
Now she remembered all the bad names she had wanted to call him but it was too late. She leaned her head against the bowed neck of the horse and cried.