书城公版The Count of Monte Cristo
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"Leave them," said Monte Cristo.Then walking towards Morrel, he took his hand; the tumultuous agitation of the young man was succeeded by a profound stupor.Julie returned, holding the silken purse in her hands, while tears of joy rolled down her cheeks, like dewdrops on the rose.

"Here is the relic," she said; "do not think it will be less dear to us now we are acquainted with our benefactor!""My child," said Monte Cristo, coloring, "allow me to take back that purse? Since you now know my face, I wish to be remembered alone through the affection I hope you will grant me.

"Oh," said Julie, pressing the purse to her heart, "no, no, I beseech you do not take it, for some unhappy day you will leave us, will you not?""You have guessed rightly, madame," replied Monte Cristo, smiling; "in a week I shall have left this country, where so many persons who merit the vengeance of heaven lived happily, while my father perished of hunger and grief."While announcing his departure, the count fixed his eyes on Morrel, and remarked that the words, "I shall have left this country," had failed to rouse him from his lethargy.He then saw that he must make another struggle against the grief of his friend, and taking the hands of Emmanuel and Julie, which he pressed within his own, he said with the mild authority of a father, "My kind friends, leave me alone with Maximilian." Julie saw the means offered of carrying off her precious relic, which Monte Cristo had forgotten.She drew her husband to the door."Let us leave them," she said.The count was alone with Morrel, who remained motionless as a statue.

"Come," said Monte-Cristo, touching his shoulder with his finger, "are you a man again, Maximilian?""Yes; for I begin to suffer again."

The count frowned, apparently in gloomy hesitation.

"Maximilian, Maximilian," he said, "the ideas you yield to are unworthy of a Christian.""Oh, do not fear, my friend," said Morrel, raising his head, and smiling with a sweet expression on the count; "I shall no longer attempt my life.""Then we are to have no more pistols -- no more despair?""No; I have found a better remedy for my grief than either a bullet or a knife.""Poor fellow, what is it?"

"My grief will kill me of itself."

"My friend," said Monte Cristo, with an expression of melancholy equal to his own, "listen to me.One day, in a moment of despair like yours, since it led to a similar resolution, I also wished to kill myself; one day your father, equally desperate, wished to kill himself too.If any one had said to your father, at the moment he raised the pistol to his head -- if any one had told me, when in my prison I pushed back the food I had not tasted for three days -- if anyone had said to either of us then, `Live --the day will come when you will be happy, and will bless life!' -- no matter whose voice had spoken, we should have heard him with the smile of doubt, or the anguish of incredulity, -- and yet how many times has your father blessed life while embracing you -- how often have I myself"--

"Ah," exclaimed Morrel, interrupting the count, "you had only lost your liberty, my father had only lost his fortune, but I have lost Valentine.""Look at me," said Monte Cristo, with that expression which sometimes made him so eloquent and persuasive -- "look at me.There are no tears in my eyes, nor is there fever in my veins, yet I see you suffer -- you, Maximilian, whom I love as my own son.Well, does not this tell you that in grief, as in life, there is always something to look forward to beyond? Now, if I entreat, if I order you to live, Morrel, it is in the conviction that one day you will thank me for having preserved your life.""Oh, heavens," said the young man, "oh, heavens -- what are you saying, count? Take care.But perhaps you have never loved!""Child!" replied the count.