June 17th. -- When the dinner hour brought us together again, Count Fosco was in his usual excellent spirits. He exerted himself to interest and amuse us, as if he was determined to efface from our memories all recollection of what had passed in the library that afternoon. Lively descriptions of his adventures in travelling, amusing anecdotes of remarkable people whom he had met with abroad, quaint comparisons between the social customs of various nations, illustrated by examples drawn from men and women indiscriminately all over Europe, humorous confessions of the innocent follies of his own early life, when he ruled the fashions of a second-rate Italian town, and wrote preposterous romances on the French model for a second-rate Italian newspaper -- all flowed in succession so easily and so gaily from his lips, and all addressed our various curiosities and various interests so directly and so delicately, that Laura and I listened to him with as much attention and, inconsistent as it may seem, with, as much admiration also, as Madame Fosco herself. Women can resist a man's love, a man's fame, a man s personal appearance, and a man's money, but they cannot resist a man's tongue when he knows how to talk to them.
After dinner, while the favourable impression which he had produced on us was still vivid in our minds, the Count modestly withdrew to read in the library.
Laura proposed a stroll in the grounds to enjoy the close of the long evening. It was necessary ir. common politeness to ask Madame Fosco to join us, but this time she had apparently received her orders beforehand, and she begged we would kindly excuse her. ‘The Count will probably want a fresh supply of cigarettes,' she remarked by way of apology, ‘and nobody can make them to his satisfaction but myself.' Her cold blue eyes almost warmed as she spoke the words -- she looked actually proud of being the officiating medium through which her lord and master composed himself with tobacco-smoke!
Laura and I went out together alone.
It was a misty, heavy evening. There was a sense of blight in the air; the flowers were drooping in the garden, and the ground was parched and dewless. The western heaven, as we saw it over the quiet trees, was of a pale yellow hue, and the sun was setting faintly in a haze. Coming rain seemed near -- it would fall probably with the fall of night.
‘Which way shall we go?' I asked.
‘Towards the lake, Marian, if you like,' she answered.
‘You seem unaccountably fond, Laura, of that dismal lake.'
‘No, not of the lake but of the scenery about it. The sand and heath and the fir-trees are the only objects I can discover, in all this large place, to remind me of Limmeridge. But we will walk in some other direction if you prefer it.'
‘I have no favourite walks at Blackwater Park, my love. One is the same as another to me. Let us go to the lake -- we may find it cooler in the open space than we find it here.'
We walked through the shadowy plantation in silence. The heaviness in the evening air oppressed us both, and when we reached the boat-house we were glad to sit down and rest inside.
A white fog hung low over the lake. The dense brown line of the trees on the opposite bank appeared above it, like a dwarf forest floating in the sky. The sandy ground, shelving downward from where we sat, was lost mysteriously in the outward layers of the fog. The silence was horrible.
No rustling of the leaves -- no bird's note in the wood -- no cry of water-fowl from the pools of the hidden lake. Even the croaking of the frogs had ceased tonight ‘It is very desolate and gloomy,' said Laura. ‘But we can be more alone here than anywhere else.'
She spoke quietly and looked at the wilderness of sand and mist with steady, thoughtful eyes. I could see that her mind was too much occupied to feel the dreary impressions from without which had fastened themselves already on mine.
‘I promised, Marian, to tell you the truth about my married life, instead of leaving you any longer to guess it for yourself,' she began. ‘That secret is the first I have ever had from you, love, and I am determined it shall be the last. I was silent, as you know, for your sake -- and perhaps a little for my own sake as well. It is very hard for a woman to confess that the man to whom she has given her whole life is the man of all others who cares least for the gift. If you were married yourself, Marian -- and especially if you were happily married -- you would feel for me as no single woman can feel, however kind and true she may be.'
What answer could I make? I could only take her hand and look at her with my whole heart as well as my eyes would let me.
‘How often,' she went on, ‘I have heard you laughing over what you used to call your ‘‘poverty!'' how often you have made me mock-speeches of congratulation on my wealth! Oh, Marian, never laugh again. Thank God for your poverty -- it has made you your own mistress, and has saved you from the lot that has fallen on me.'
A sad beginning on the lips of a young wife! -- sad in its quiet, plain-spoken truth. The few days we had all passed together at Blackwater Park had been many enough to show me -- to show any one -- what her husband had married her for.
‘You shall not be distressed,' she said, ‘by hearing how soon my disappointments and my trials began -- or even by knowing what they were. It is bad enough to have them on my memory. If I tell you how he received the first and last attempt at remonstrance that I ever made, you will know how he has always treated me, as well as if I had described it in so many words.
It was one day at Rome when we had ridden out together to the tomb of Cecilia Metella. The sky was calm and lovely, and the grand old ruin looked beautiful, and the remembrance that a husband's love had raised it in the old time to a wife's memory, made me feel more tenderly and more anxiously towards my husband than I had ever felt yet. ‘‘Would you build such a tomb for me, Percival?'' I asked him. ‘‘You said you loved me dearly before we were married, and yet, since that time --'' I could get no farther.