A SUMMER NIGHT
Soames left dead silence in the little study."Thank you for that good lie,"said Jolyon suddenly."Come out--the air in here is not what it was!"In front of a long high southerly wall on which were trained peach-trees the two walked up and down in silence.Old Jolyon had planted some cupressus-trees,at intervals,between this grassy terrace and the dipping meadow full of buttercups and ox-eyed daisies;for twelve years they had flourished,till their dark spiral shapes had quite a look of Italy.Birds fluttered softly in the wet shrubbery;the swallows swooped past,with a steel-blue sheen on their swift little bodies;the grass felt springy beneath the feet,its green refreshed;butterflies chased each other.
After that painful scene the quiet of Nature was wonderfully poignant.Under the sun-soaked wall ran a narrow strip of garden-bed full of mignonette and pansies,and from the bees came a low hum in which all other sounds were set--the mooing of a cow deprived of her calf,the calling of a cuckoo from an elm-tree at the bottom of the meadow.Who would have thought that behind them,within ten miles,London began--that London of the Forsytes,with its wealth,its misery;its dirt and noise;its jumbled stone isles of beauty,its grey sea of hideous brick and stucco?That London which had seen Irene's early tragedy,and Jolyon's own hard days;that web;that princely workhouse of the possessive instinct!
And while they walked Jolyon pondered those words:'I hope you'll treat him as you treated me.'That would depend on himself.Could he trust himself?Did Nature permit a Forsyte not to make a slave of what he adored?Could beauty be confided to him?Or should she not be just a visitor,coming when she would,possessed for moments which passed,to return only at her own choosing?'We are a breed of spoilers!'thought Jolyon,'close and greedy;the bloom of life is not safe with us.Let her come to me as she will,when she will,not at all if she will not.Let me be just her stand-by,her perching-place;never-never her cage!'
She was the chink of beauty in his dream.Was he to pass through the curtains now and reach her?Was the rich stuff of many possessions,the close encircling fabric of the possessive instinct walling in that little black figure of himself,and Soames--was it to be rent so that he could pass through into his vision,find there something not of the senses only?'Let me,'he thought,'ah!
let me only know how not to grasp and destroy!'