He is quite reasonable and fair in his calm moments, and as he is calm now he will not deny that only yesterday he threatened my life."I was well-nigh choking, and my eyes were certainly fiery.He drew attention to me.
"Look at him now.He can scarcely control himself in your presence.
He is not accustomed to the presence of ladies, anyway.shall have to arm myself before I dare go on deck with him."He shook his head sadly, murmuring, "Too bad, too bad," while the hunters burst into guffaws of laughter.
The deep-sea voices of these men, rumbling and bellowing in the confined space, produced a wild effect.The whole setting was wild, and for the first time, regarding this strange woman and realizing how incongruous she was in it, I was aware of how much a part of it I was myself.I knew these men and their mental processes, was one of them myself, living the seal-hunting life, eating the seal-hunting fare, thinking, largely, the seal-hunting thoughts.There was for me no strangeness to it, to the rough clothes, the coarse faces, the wild laughter, and the lurching cabin walls and swaying sea-lamps.
As I buttered a piece of bread my eyes chanced to rest upon my hand.
The knuckles were skinned and inflamed clear across, the fingers swollen, the nails rimmed with black.I felt the mattress-like growth of beard on my neck, knew that the sleeve of my coat was ripped, that a button was missing from the throat of the blue shirt I wore.The dirk mentioned by Wolf Larsen rested in its sheath on my hip.It was very natural that it should be there, -- how natural I had not imagined until now, when I looked upon it with her eyes and knew how strange it and all that went with it must appear to her.
But she divined the mockery in Wolf Larsen's words, and again favored me with a sympathetic glance.But there was a look of bewilderment also in her eyes.That it was mockery made the situation more puzzling to her.
"I may be taken off by some passing vessel, perhaps," she suggested.
"There will be no passing vessels, except other sealing schooners,"Wolf Larsen made answer.
"I have no clothes, nothing," she objected."You hardly realize, sir, that I am not a man, or that I am unaccustomed to the vagrant, careless life which you and your men seem to lead.""The sooner you get accustomed to it, the better," he said.
"I'll furnish you with cloth, needles, and thread," he added."I hope it will not be too dreadful a hardship for you to make yourself a dress or two."She made a wry pucker with her mouth, as though to advertise her ignorance of dressmaking.That she was frightened and bewildered, and that she was bravely striving to hide it, was quite plain to me.
"I suppose you're like Mr.Van Weyden there, accustomed to having things done for you.Well, I think doing a few things for yourself will hardly dislocate any joints.By the way, what do you do for a living?"She regarded him with amazement unconcealed.
"I mean no offence, believe me.People eat, therefore they must procure the wherewithal.These men here shoot seals in order to live; for the same reason I sail this schooner; and Mr.Van Weyden, for the present at any rate, earns his salty grub by assisting me.Now what do you do?"She shrugged her shoulders.
"Do you feed yourself? Or does some one else feed you?""I'm afraid some one else has fed me most of my life," she laughed, trying bravely to enter into the spirit of his quizzing, though I could see a terror dawning and growing in her eyes as she watched Wolf Larsen.
"And I suppose some one else makes your bed for you?""I have made beds," she replied.
"Very often?"
She shook her head with mock ruefulness.
"Do you know what they do to poor men in the States, who, like you, do not work for their living?""I am very ignorant," she pleaded."What do they do to the poor men who are like me?""They send them to jail.The crime of not earning a living, in their case, is called vagrancy.If I were Mr.Van Weyden, who harps eternally on questions of right and wrong, I'd ask by what right do you live when you do nothing to deserve living?""But as you are not Mr.Van Weyden, I don't have to answer, do I?"She beamed upon him through her terror-filled eyes, and the pathos of it cut me to the heart.I must in some way break in and lead the conversation into other channels.
"Have you ever earned a dollar by your own labor?" he demanded, certain of her answer, a triumphant vindictiveness in his voice.
"Yes, I have," she answered slowly, and I could have laughed aloud at his crestfallen visage."I remember my father giving me a dollar once, when I was a little girl, for remaining absolutely quiet for five minutes."He smiled indulgently.