At once we moved aboard the Ghost , occupying our old state- rooms and cooking in the galley.The imprisonment of Wolf Larsen had happened most opportunely, for what must have been the Indian summer of this high latitude was gone and drizzling stormy weather had set in.We were very comfortable, and the inadequate shears, with the foremast suspended from them, gave a businesslike air to the schooner and a promise of departure.
And now that we had Wolf Larsen in irons, how little did we need it!
Like his first attack, his second had been accompanied by serious disablement.
Maud made the discovery in the afternoon while trying to give him nourishment.
He had shown signs of consciousness, and she had spoken to him, eliciting no response.He was lying on his left side at the time, and in evident pain.With a restless movement he rolled his head around, clearing his left ear from the pillow against which it had been pressed.At once he heard and answered her, and at once she came to me.
Pressing the pillow against his left ear, I asked him if he heard me, but he gave no sign.Removing the pillow and repeating the question, he answered promptly that he did.
"Do you know you are deaf in the right ear?" I asked.
"Yes," he answered in a low, strong voice, "and worse than that.My whole right side is affected.It seems asleep.I cannot move arm or leg.""Feigning again?" I demanded angrily.
He shook his head, his stern mouth shaping the strangest, twisted smile.
It was indeed a twisted smile, for it was on the left side only, the facial muscles of the right side moving not at all.
"That was the last play of the Wolf," he said."I am paralyzed.I shall never walk again.Oh, only on the other side," he added, as though divining the suspicious glance I flung at his left leg, the knee of which had just then drawn up and elevated the blankets.
"It's unfortunate," he continued."I'd liked to have done for you first, Hump.And I thought I had that much left in me.""But why?" I asked, partly in horror, partly out of curiosity.
Again his stern mouth framed the twisted smile, as he said:
"Oh, just to be alive, to be living and doing, to be the biggest bit of the ferment to the end, to eat you.But to die this way -- "He shrugged his shoulders, or attempted to shrug them, rather, for the left shoulder alone moved.Like the smile, the shrug was twisted.
"But how can you account for it?" I asked."Where is the seat of your trouble?""The brain," he said at once."It was those cursed headaches brought it on.""Symptoms," I said.
He nodded his head."There is no accounting for it.I was never sick in my life.Something's gone wrong with my brain.A cancer, a tumor, or something of that nature, -- a thing that devours and destroys.It's attacking my nerve-centres, eating them up, bit by bit, cell by cell -- from the pain.""The motor-centres, too," I suggested.
"So it would seem; and the curse of it is that I must lie here, conscious, mentally unimpaired, knowing that the lines are going down, breaking bit by bit communication with the world.I cannot see, hearing and feeling are leaving me, at this rate I shall soon cease to speak; yet all the time I shall be here, alive, active, and powerless.""When you say you are here, I'd suggest the likelihood of the soul," I said.
"Bosh!" was his retort."It simply means that in the attack on my brain the higher psychical centres are untouched.I can remember, can think and reason.When that goes, I go.I am not.The soul?"He broke out in mocking laughter, then turned his left ear to the pillow as a sign that he wished no further conversation.
Maud and I went about our work oppressed by the fearful fate which had overtaken him, -- how fearful we were yet fully to realize.There was the awfulness of retribution about it.Our thoughts were deep and solemn, and we spoke to each other scarcely above whispers.
"You might remove the handcuffs," he said that night, as we stood in consultation over him."It's dead safe.I'm a paralytic now.The next thing to watch out for is bed sores."He smiled his twisted smile, and Maud, her eyes wide with horror, was compelled to turn away her head.
"Do you know that your smile is crooked?" I asked him; for knew that she must attend him, and I wished to save her as much as possible.
"Then I shall smile no more," he said calmly."I thought something was wrong.My right cheek has been numb all day.Yes, and I've had warnings of this for the last three days; by spells, my right side seemed going to sleep, sometimes arm or hand, sometimes leg or foot.""So my smile is crooked?" he queried a short while after."Well, consider henceforth that I smile internally, with my soul, if you please, my soul.
Consider that I am smiling now."
And for the space of several minutes he lay there, quiet, indulging his grotesque fancy.
The man of him was not changed.It was the old, indomitable, terrible Wolf Larsen, imprisoned somewhere within that flesh which had once been so invincible and splendid.Now it bound him with insentient fetters, walling his soul in darkness and silence, blocking it from the world which to him had been a riot of action.No more would he conjugate the verb "to do"in every mood and tense."To be" was all that remained to him -- to be, as he had defined death, without movement; to will, but not to execute;to think and reason and in the spirit of him to be as alive as ever, but in the flesh to be dead, quite dead.
And yet, though I even removed the handcuffs, we could not adjust ourselves to his condition.Our minds revolted.To us he was full of potentiality.
We knew not what to expect of him next, what fearful thing, rising above the flesh, he might break out and do.Our experience warranted this state of mind, and we went about our work with anxiety always upon us.
I had solved the problem which had arisen through the shortness of the shears.By means of the watch-tackle, (I had made a new one), I heaved the butt of the foremast across the rail and then lowered it to the deck.